It's been just over a week now.....

So it has been just over a week since the DNC and I have thrown myself into my Mary Kay business with out really taking any time for myself since the surgery.  


Things have been going well, the bleeding and cramping had pretty much completely stopped by Thursday.

I received the most amazing gift in the mail from Forever Warm thanks to my good friend Kayleigh.  Sorry for the crappy picture, it was taken from my phone.  The lovely Momma who made these is also a Angel Momma.  In the note you see, she explained to me some of her story and expressed her sorrow for my loss.  The two blankets are made out of the same yarn, to represent on pregnancy, but two different patterns to represent the two babies.  I bawled like a baby when I opened the box at the post office and immediately called Kayleigh to let her know they came in.  


I do feel like I am moving on and healing, but there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of them.  I still think of them as Baby A & Baby B, but am trying to think of "unisex" names for them for us to remember them by.  I WILL make sure that they always remain a part of our lives no matter what happens from here.  


Miscarriage or pregnancy loss is not something you should be ashamed of.  I tried to hide it in my every day life for so long after I found out that the 2nd baby didn't make it.  I only told a select few. But it felt like I was lying to everyone including myself about how things were going.  So I started opening up a little and started this blog.  I am sure that this blog was the first a lot of people had heard of the babies and what was going on.  I will never ever forget the day that I got the positive pregnancy test and I still have the picture of them (yes I took more than one, I took like 3 or 4 but only took a picture of 2 of them).  I will never forget the feeling I had when I knew that I was carrying a life inside me again.  I will also never forget going to the Dr not even a week later and being told that I had lost the baby.  Then going back in the following week and being told that it had been twins and there was still one hanging on, barely, but there.  What I went through I would not wish upon anyone, but those who have been through it need support, they need people to talk to and have a shoulder to cry on.  I found great comfort in Lil Angels Hankies and Kayleigh.  They have been there through the whole thing with me and I will hold them dear to my heart for the rest of time.