I do realize that I have not been posting as much as I wanted to. Between work, Mary Kay, and the boys I really do not get much time for me.
We have had a stomach bug going through the house this past couple of days, well more like 5 days. Timmothy came down with it first on Friday night & then Ry & I came down with it Sunday night. It's not easy to take care of a sick 20 month old when you are really sick your self. I will admit I got lucky and Tim was home on Monday so I got to rest after being up just about all night. I haven't felt that crappy since the morning sickness before my loss.
So needless to say, it's 1:25 AM and I am awake wondering if I want to try and eat something.... It's not looking all that great for this Momma tonight.
Life continues to go on around me. My boys are getting bigger by the day (smarter too!). Timmothy never fails to amaze me with what he is doing at school. They are working on multiplication and fractions all at the same time, it's enough to confuse the daylights out of me but he seems to be getting the hang of it. He is also getting way to tall already. I am short, but my almost 9 year old is only about 6 inches shorter than I :(. I really should get a better picture of the two of us standing next to each other (with out me being in heals lol).
Ry is loving daycare!! He is impressing his teacher with how smart & strong he is. I am also very impressed with his teacher as well. She runs a "Natural" daycare and does not believe in time-outs but does positive parenting. Well his first day there last week, Ry would not nap with the other children. What does his teacher do???? Pops on her Mei Tie and proceeds to wear Ry for almost 2 hours while he slept!!! Can I say how thrilled I was to hear this. Ry LOVES to be worn.
I have been told what a wonderful thing I am doing by writing about my loss. That by my writing, I am helping other women. That was not my intentions when I started doing this. I needed an outlet for emotions and being able to write has helped them. I used to journal or write in my diary, but now a days who actually has one right? Every thing is online. I am sure there are ways to make your posts super secret or something like that, but for right now, I have not written anything that I wouldn't want anyone to know. If I am helping others, great! I hope that they can find some healing in my words and my journey. But not every post is going to be about my loss. I do have my two living children that I love with all my heart and can't imagine my life with out them <3